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Live like you mean it and love til you feel it
17 July 2020 @ 05:32 am



Some stuff:

My journal is kind of semi friends only.
The most fandom-related squeeing is public but everything remotely personal is f-locked. My journal is like 90% english, 10% german.
Friending policy: Feel free to friend me anytime, but most likely I'll only friend back if I know you at least a little bit. If you think we should totally get to know each other because we seem to be twins separated at birth (or something) please drop me a comment and let me know. ;)

Important things to know about me: I don't discriminate between hetero, slash and femslash. I don't get the difference and I hope I'll never will. ;) I also love gen. Gen is the bestest best thing ever. Friendship-fics and siblings-fics make me incredibly happy.
And I don't bash. Never.
So my lj is a bashing-free-zone and I hope it's going stay that way.

Things I like: fanfics, books, tv shows, hurt/comfort (guilty pleasure), pretty girls, brains (god, neuroanatomy makes me so happy), boobs, psychology, history, religion, people, animals, talking, sunshine, chocolate
Things I hate: wank, character bashing, intolerance, misogyny, racism

Favorite Fandoms:  Tumbling, Teen Wolf, DC and Marvel mainly (also Doramas recently)
 
 
Current Mood: amusedamused
 
 
Live like you mean it and love til you feel it
Hello darlings, how are you doing?
It's sunday evening, but I don't have to work tomorrow, because I need to drive my mom to an OP. Nothing big, but meh. Stuff like this always makes me nervous. I'm kind of anxious about a lot of things at the moment, even though things are actually fine. It might just be pms, who knows.
My gf finally found an apartment and she's moving here! *squee* So no more driving! XD Well, no more three hours driving. So that's good.
Looking at my New Year's resolution I'm doing pretty good at the excercise and reading front. Writing also works just fine. I'm sucking at going to bed at reasonably times though, still have to work on that.

Fangirling:
Oh man I fell down a hole and I can't get up. Ever since I found out Jon and Sansa spend their whole time together in s6 of Game of Thrones (and I've watched all their scenes like a zillion times and read like a million fanfics) I can't stop thinking about them. They are, like, made up of all my favorite tropes rolled into one ship and it's terrible. I mean it's awesome. But terrible! *Stiles voice*
Protectiveness? Check. Battle Couple? Check. We used to loathe each other but now I'm really glad you exist? Check. Awesome team work because they complement each other perfecly? Check. Desperate hugs and gentle forehead kisses? Check. Kickass revenge? Check. They make each other smile? Check. Staring into each other's eyes forever and ever? Check. It was a gift? Check. (Do I care that they're half siblings or at least cousins? No I don't. Just in case you wondered. Couldn't care less. XD There you go.)

Currently Reading:
• A Song of Ice and Fire: A Game of Thrones (yeah surprise ...)

Currently Watching:
• Crazy Ex-Girlfriend
• Game of Thrones (stopped watching after the fourth season, started again now)
• Shadowhunters (but I really hate it, because they butchered Simon and Clary (and Katharine McNamara is the worst actress ever) - I really care about Izzy, Jace and Alec though. Also I love Magnus and Raphael. Damnit.)

Currently Writing:
• Fic for a gift exchange which proves to be harder than expected

Random Music Video Rec:
Throwback to the past! :D
Oh man, I loved Firefly (I mean, didn't we all?) and most of all, I loved River Tam. She's such an amazing, complexe and intense character and this beautiful portray really does her justice. Also the ending still kills me - every damn time.
 
 
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Metric: All Yours
 
 
Live like you mean it and love til you feel it
19 January 2017 @ 11:21 am
Da mein Ziel ist mehr Sachen zu beenden dieses Jahr, hier eine Liste mit Dingen, die ich gerne beenden würde:

Zu beenden:
• Die Wahrheit über Wölfe (Sterek)
Nicht allein (Wolfgang/Cluster)
• "No Place for Cowards" Yuutaru Bigbang 2015
• Winos Wichtelfic 2015 (Koji/Shohei)
• "Kaufhauselfen" (Luinas Wichtelfic 2015)
• "Stille" (Malydia)
• "Ein Moment" (Mizumori)
• "Evidence of Things unseen" (Sterek/Scallison)

Wird noch ergänzt... ;-)
 
 
Live like you mean it and love til you feel it
So I haven't really posted as much as I meant to during the last few months. I try to be better, I promise. :)
But reallife really kicked my ass during december and I'm still recovering from that. My grandfather had a stroke and is now at the clinic I work which is nice but also stressful for me, because I feel like I have to spend every tiny break I have to take care of stuff for him. Also the whole planning what to do afterwards, what to do with his car, with his apartment etc. is really hard and I hate it, but I don't want my mom to have to do it on her own. :-/
My brother flies to Korea tonight and as always I worry when he's so far away. Life is so stressful for my anxiety lately. x_x It's no fun.
My gf is looking for an apartment near me, which is awesome, but also stressful, because it's SO HARD to find something (affordable). So keep you fingers crossed for us, yeah?

How are you all doing? Still alive and kicking? Any New Year's resolutions anybody? =)
I love this stuff, so I made some of my own:

New Year's resolutions.
Go to bed at a reasonable time
Excercise more (at least 2x a week)
Write more regularly and actually finish stuff
Read more books
Have an internet-free evening per week
Do more online courses

Random Quote:
“Has anyone noticed this whole city is looking for us, mad at us, or wants to kill us?"
"So?" said Kaz.
"Well, usually it's just half the city.”

"Crooked Kingdom" by Leigh Bardugo (which is so so so good - 10/10 would recommend)

Random Music Video rec:
Vesper Lynd was the best thing that ever happened to the James Bond franchise (okay, next to Judy Dench) and I love love love her and her messed up relationship to James SO much, you guys, you don't even know. So have a music video that I really adore about these two and that really captures everything sad and beautiful and fucked up about these two. ♥ Also I'm a huge music video junkie and I feel like making some random rec thingie every week or something? Thoughts anyone?
 
 
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: Birdy: Strange Birds
 
 
Live like you mean it and love til you feel it
10 January 2015 @ 04:30 pm
Oh man, sometimes I'm SO FUCKING DONE WITH THIS FANDOM, I SWEAR. x_____x

If I see ONE MORE POST using Sciles or Allison or Lydia to preach Malia-hate I'm going to cut someone.
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Live like you mean it and love til you feel it
28 April 2014 @ 07:31 pm
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Live like you mean it and love til you feel it
30 March 2014 @ 02:16 pm
Made some icons for a challenge @ beacon_hills
Enjoy.

10 themes
hero | villain | human | supernatural | female


male | beginning | end | defeat | triumph


category
1 episode

3x18 "Riddled" (I made one more, because I couldn't decide)


artist's choice


Feel free to use them - just maybe give credit if you do. =)
 
 
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: Mourning Ritual - "Bad Moon Rising"
 
 
Live like you mean it and love til you feel it
18 March 2014 @ 10:31 am
Nope  
You can't even beginn to guess how hard I find it to be at work right now ...
I've spent the last few hours crying, trying not to cry, and telling people there's "something in my eye(s)".
I'm not sure how I'm supposed to get any work done, but obviously "I have Teen Wolf" is not going to cut it.

Please don't talk to me about what happened, because I seriously can't.
Maybe in a few days or in a few weeks. Or maybe never.

Anything else is fine though. (Just not ... that.)

How's the weather? What are you doing today?
Did anybody watch the Veronica Mars movie yet? I need to talk about it - even though I'm not finished yet (so no spoilers about the murderer - I'm still not sure who did it).
Did anybody else see the way Scott was holding Stiles hand, because I sure did.
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Current Mood: distresseddistressed
 
 
Live like you mean it and love til you feel it
I met with maddle yesterday which was nice and actually made me feel better about some stuff. Like, it DOES help to realize growing up is hard for everybody and we all have the same shit to deal with, like "how do I pay rent" "oh my god my insurance fees are killing me" and all the financial commitments and they get more and more with every year.
Life has gotten so fucking expensive and sometimes it scares me shitless that I'm all on my own in this. Like nobody else is paying for me, neither a partner or the state or my mum, it's my earnings or nothing and it frightens me. Because sometimes shit happens and I have to pay for really expensive stuff and everytime I'm like "shit! shit! I don't have that money" and I scramble, and in the end somehow it works but it gives me a heart attack every time.

Writing is not happening at the moment. It's part depression and anxiety that keep me from doing much of anything and it's the workload at the hospital that adds to my depression because it makes me feel even more tired all the time. It's like an endless circle of tiredness.
And I keep thinking about reducing it, because I can't go on like this anymore - but it scares me shitless because of said financial commitments I have and that keep growing and growing.
Sometimes I feel like I'm standing in a room full of people and scream and scream and nobody listens. Not even my friends.
I should probably just get over myself. I try. It's not working so far.

Aside from life (which is sucky at best) - Teen Wolf is like my oasis. I try not to think about much else but TW, because everything else makes me want to cry (even more XD).
If you have any h/c recs, especially about s3b I would eat them up with a spoon. I need aftermath comfort galore and all the pack!feels. I'm totally on board for Sciles, Sterek and Scydia (and honestly, everything with Malia, because I adore Shelley Hennig). ;-) So gimme, gimme, gimme please?
 
 
Current Mood: scaredscared